I forgot how to be sad and blame myself for all unfortunate around me
I forgot how bad i am for everything i do
I forgot how friends made me feel nothing
I forgot how i am out of place at home
I forgot to forget myself
But
I remember i should regret for doing that to myself
I remember i should not be like this as i should enjoy the sadness of the world
I remember i should fall apart since they already broke me into pieces
I remember i should not be here anymore because i tried to leave the world
Just because one being is proud of my existence, i forgot those things and remember these things
Now i am on the other hand