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Kaaklat: KWENTONG PANANAMPALATAYA
I forgot how to be sad and blame myself for all unfortunates around me
I forgot how bad i am for everything i do
I forgot how friends made me feel nothing
I forgot how i am out of place at home
I forgot to forget myself
But
I remember i should regret for doing that to myself
I remember i should not be like this as i should enjoy the sadness of the world
I remember i should fall apart since they already broke me into pieces
I remember i should not be here anymore because i tried to leave the world
Just because one being is proud of my existence, i forgot those things and remember these things
Now i am on the other hand, enjoying the world which i thought i shouldn't since i am just nothing in this world
Sometimes you need a push to move
You need a guide not to go astray
You need a lead to follow
Don't just look for a friend
Look for someone who will support you
Who will help you grow
Someone you cannot just talk to
But encourages you
Someone you can trust to listen
And can give you an honest feedback upfront
Even it hurts
Someone who will not sugarcoat things to impress you
Who recognizes your strength and see your opportunities
Who are able to hone your skills and shape your personality to a confident human being whose feet still on the ground
Someone you can be with to grow continuously without limitation
Once you found that someone
Appreciate that person
Show what you got and learned
Know how to treasure someone who put efforts in your growth
Dedicate your succes
I love all people
Except for one person...
When I was a child,
I have thought of loving everyone
So everyone will love me in return
Then i will be filled by love
But i was wrong
Because i attracted abusive people who took everything for granted
So i killed myself
My old self
Before,
i love all people except myself,
That was why i was willing to give everything even those i deserve and even those things i need to survive
But today i was reborn
Almost with a stone heart but it is an edified heart
So i can stop caring
And i can stop loving
most importantly,
i learned to love myself
And i will do my best!
guided by wisdom
But deep inside
i want to keep loving others
Taking care of people i value
And those people i used to value
From the distance
But i was hindered by fear and distrust
Coz it seems i cannot trust anyone anymore
After all betrayals and lies
Despite of all darkness nights
i cannot turn myself into darkness
i was set up to do good but sadly i was not able to get the love i want
Nor the desire to give up is out of my hand
The only option is to continue this course of life and hoping to reach the end of the road before the dawn of my age
Thus
i gave up leading my life because my path is towards the end
And let what is good to be done
Because the world will remain dark and it will not adjust to my desire
So letting what is good to rule my life will take away my desire to end
This time i will keep reminding myself
That someone will keep loving me
Coz i will now be here for myself that those i expected failed to do so
And have a guts to say
I don't love everyone anymore but myself
You gave me water so I gave you air
And I gave you flowers
Then I gave you food
Then I gave you shed
But when you saw me tall and strong
You cut me down and made me your foundation of your home
- Tree
I helped my friends as much as I can and sometimes more than what I should until they return destruction and unappreciation then I will leave without a trace. I will be dead in their world and they will be the same in my world. Now I decided to walk on my own without anything to carry on my shoulder. I live a peaceful life. Without laughter but without tears. Without expectations and without disappointments. A clear world without anything but peace until that same peace went inside me and I , myself became peace.
I walked alone in my world and that so called peace inside me widen its scope. It whitened everything inside of my space and everything I touch until everything around me is whitened and cleared. Everything became in peace and there is nothing that can corrupt my peaceful world because there is nothing anymore in my world. Everything becomes nothing. And this so called peace becomes nothing as well. Thus, I am nothing. Nothing in my world and nothing in your world.
I became an indestructible peace and a pure white that cannot be bothered by anything because I lost concern for any single thing. As I walked to my own path this so called peace is starting to whiten me. I slowly camouflage to my surroundings. No, I am actually starting to become totally nothing. Just like everything around me, which is now nothing for me. Because that's how peace consume everything to maintain its peace and now it's consuming me so I will become in peace.
One day, a man is walking by while looking for food.
"Hi there friend! I'm glad to see you! Come over here, I want to hear your story". The tree invited the man to have a little conversation.
The man answered, "Pardon me, but I don't have time to waste. I'm hungry and I'm looking for food to eat."
The tree suggested, "Then you can eat my fruits while talking to me".
"Therefore, let me have it all so I can share some of it to my friends". Then the man pick all of the fruits of the tree.
"Now you have fruits to eat, tell me something about where you came from"
"Let me bring this food first to my friend then I will tell you". Then the man left to bring the fruits to his friends.
After some days the man went back.
The tree immediately greet the man, "How are you young man! I'm so excited to talk to you".
The man said, "Pardon me but I still don't have time because I am courting my loveone and looking for something to give."
"Then you can take my flowers, their fragrance is enough to make her fall in love."
The man took all the flowers and immediately run to his loveone.
After some time the man returned.
The tree greeted him, "Hi my friend! I'm glad you came back to talk to me".
But the man told the tree, "as much as I want to talk to you but I am too worried because my baby is sick".
The tree offered help again, "then you take my leaf, it is effective medicine to those who are ill".
Then the man took all leaves and left the bald tree.
The man returned in winter and approached the tree, "I was going to tell you a story but this coldness made it difficult for me to do it. Can you lend me your branches so I can make fire from it?"
The tree is happy to help the man so he can return in spring healthy and happy to tell his journey.
The man really came back in spring but to ask help from the tree, "my house was destroyed due to bad weather, I'm here because I know you can help."
The tree answered full of mercy, "take what you need from me to fix your house, and I, your friend will wait for you to listen to those stories you have promised to tell."
The man took everything he needs to repair his house.
Finally, everything is good and the man came back to tell his friend how he manage to overcome those obstacles but the tree is not there anymore. The man felt tired after trying to look for the tree and start searching for a place to sit. So when he found something to sit, he immediately rest on it and uttered. "I want to tell you so many things but you are not here, so I will just sit here to relax."
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Noong unang panahon, may isang puno ang tumubo malayo sa iba pang puno. Lumago siyang matibay, mataas at mabunga ngunit nag iisa.
Isang araw, isang lalaki ang nagawi sa dako ng puno habang naghahanap ng pagkain.
"Kumusta kaibigan! Masaya akong makita ka! " pagbati ng puno. "Halika, nais kong marinig ang iyong kasaysayan" paanyaya ng puno.
"Paumanhin ngunit wala akong oras para makipagkwentuhan. Ako ay gutom at naghahanap ng pagkain" sagot sa kaniya ng lalaki.
"Kung gayon, pumitas ka ng aking bunga at iyong kanin habang tayo ay nag-uusap", mungkahi ng puno.
"Kung gayon, pipitas ako ng madami sa gayon mabigyan ko ang aking mga kasama" sabi ng lalaki.
"Ngayon may pagkain ka na, sabihin mo sa akin kung anong mayroon sa dakong paroon"
"Hayaan mo muna akong dalhin ang mga ito sa mga kasama ko" sabi ng lalaki sa puno. Umalis nga ang lalaki dala ang mga bunga ng puno.
Matapos ng ilang araw ay muling bumalik ang lalaki.
"Kamusta kaibigan! Sabik na akong makausap ka" pagbati ng puno sa kaniya.
"Paumanhin ngunit wala pa akong oras sapagkat naghahanap ako ng ipangsusuyo sa aking kasintahan." Wika ng lalaki.
"Kung gayon, kunin mo ang mga bulaklak ko. Sapat ang halimuyak nito para mapaibig siya sa iyo."
Kinuha nga ng lalaki ang lahat ng bulaklak at dalidali umalis para suyuin ang kaniyang kasintahan.
Matapos ang ilang panahon ay bumalik ang lalaki. Nasasabik na bumati ang puno, "kamusta kaibigan, masaya ako na nagbalik ka para makipagtalastasan sa akin"
Subalit nagdahilan muli ang lalaki, "gustuhin ko man makipag-usap sa iyo ngunit ako ay puspos ng bagabag dahil ang aking sanggol ay may sakit".
Muling umalok ng tulong ang puno, "kung gayon, kunin mo ang aking dahon, mabisang gamot ito sa may sakit".
Kumuha nga ang lalaki ng mga dahon at iniwan ang puno na lagas na.
Bumalik ang lalaki sa panahon ng taglamig at lumapit sa puno. "Magsasaysay sana ako sa iyo ngunit ang lamig ng panahon ay nagpapahirap sa akin. Maaari mo bang ibigay ang iyong mga sanga para magamit kong paningas ng apoy" sabi ng lalaki.
Masayang sumang-ayon ang puno para tumulong sa lalaki sa gayon makabalik ito sa tagsibol na masigla at masaya na makipag-usap.
I already gave up
I am ready to disappear
But you brought a smile on my face
You gave me strength to become an ace
You raise my will to continue my race
Day by day I always pray to share my days
To pass my strength just like what you did
But I guess
I was too weak to fulfill this wish
But let me join you and hug you there
Let me hear your voice and let us sing a praise
To be with you and talk to you
So let me see you there and allow me to say
Thank you